Thursday, August 18, 2011
Quite abit of stuff happened last week; which led me to ponder and reflect.
Things that upset me, somehow seemed insignificant to my bf.
Why is this so?
Is it just me, being over-sensitive?
Is it that i cared to much, which is why i tend to just speak my mind to try and solve things right there and then?
I don't like to be the irritating one who always bring something up.
But, what choice do i have?
My bf isn't one who's naturally very open and chatty.
If he naturally opens up to me, talks to me, lets me know what's really on his mind or how he's feeling, i won't have to keep on probing, trying to get some answers so that whatever issue is bugging me, will be "solved".
I dont like to sweep things under the rug and let it pile up.
We know that it will burst open one day.
I'm one who prefers to talk it out; give each other a chance to tell their side of the story.
I just can't have a cold war, and when i asked if it was because of me, i was told no.
If it wasn't me, why give me the cold shoulder and leave me all puzzled and thinking all the time for what that i might have done. This, again will get me started on probing.
If i was told directly what the reason was, i wouldnt have probed so much.
But again, maybe i cared too much which is why all these affects me whereas you seemed.. so fine.
Maybe.
I should just be like you.
So cool and not be bothered by all these.
Even if it does, i'll just keep mum.
Things that upset me, somehow seemed insignificant to my bf.
Why is this so?
Is it just me, being over-sensitive?
Is it that i cared to much, which is why i tend to just speak my mind to try and solve things right there and then?
I don't like to be the irritating one who always bring something up.
But, what choice do i have?
My bf isn't one who's naturally very open and chatty.
If he naturally opens up to me, talks to me, lets me know what's really on his mind or how he's feeling, i won't have to keep on probing, trying to get some answers so that whatever issue is bugging me, will be "solved".
I dont like to sweep things under the rug and let it pile up.
We know that it will burst open one day.
I'm one who prefers to talk it out; give each other a chance to tell their side of the story.
I just can't have a cold war, and when i asked if it was because of me, i was told no.
If it wasn't me, why give me the cold shoulder and leave me all puzzled and thinking all the time for what that i might have done. This, again will get me started on probing.
If i was told directly what the reason was, i wouldnt have probed so much.
But again, maybe i cared too much which is why all these affects me whereas you seemed.. so fine.
Maybe.
I should just be like you.
So cool and not be bothered by all these.
Even if it does, i'll just keep mum.
Labels: rantings
etched memories, 12:56 PM.
