Had a catching up session with one of my friends, only to reminisce the past.
It just seemed like yesterday, when we were so carefree with no worries.
We just had to worry about our studies, boy-girl relationships, having fun.. etc
Oh, how i miss those days.

Now everything seemed to have made a 360 degree turn.
Now we worry about school, work, income and so much more!!

Furthermore, living here in Singapore it is really very competitive.
We work to survive, not survive to work.

Here, everything is about money.
Government is increasing the cost of living, life gets more stressful.

Of course, those living a sheltered life, may not experience this yet.

Now i'm starting to ponder.
Even if i manage to complete my studies and get a degree, will my future income be enough?
Or maybe, by the time i graduate, even a degree is rendered useless.

Oh boy.

i hate it when i feel insecure.
why is it that of all the little hiccups, it's caused by the same stupid problem.
Maybe i'm just being anal.

I tried to be direct and honest with what and how i feel about it, but somehow i feel worse.

I get more paranoid, unsure about trusting.

I want to be assured, but there's no assurance from you and the negativity is building up.
I am trying to convince myself to let it go.

Somehow, i'm glad that my blog is not heard of because i can rant it out here.