Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
But where there are prophecies, they will cease;
where there are tongues, they will be stilled;
where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking,
it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.
But where there are prophecies, they will cease;
where there are tongues, they will be stilled;
where there is knowledge, it will pass away.
etched memories, 4:54 PM.
Friday, October 14, 2011
I told you how i felt, or what bothered me.. so that i can just "clear" the air.
Never did i know it actually affected you in a way that it accumulated and caused you to be pissed.
If there were no questions, i wouldnt have asked.
You said not to question your every action, ok i wont.
I will not bring up anything that bothers me, neither will i be affected if you are going away on a short trip with your friends during your one week holiday while i have school the whole of that week, nor will i comment much on any other stuff.
You asked if i was fine, i lied.
I didn't feel fine.
I just felt sad or horrible.
I cried while i was messaging you;
cried myself to bed.
I will just focus on my upcoming test and school work and next week's 6 days straight of school after work, while you can have fun having dinner or playing lan games or going to sisters island for 2d 1n.
No comments.
Never did i know it actually affected you in a way that it accumulated and caused you to be pissed.
If there were no questions, i wouldnt have asked.
You said not to question your every action, ok i wont.
I will not bring up anything that bothers me, neither will i be affected if you are going away on a short trip with your friends during your one week holiday while i have school the whole of that week, nor will i comment much on any other stuff.
You asked if i was fine, i lied.
I didn't feel fine.
I just felt sad or horrible.
I cried while i was messaging you;
cried myself to bed.
I will just focus on my upcoming test and school work and next week's 6 days straight of school after work, while you can have fun having dinner or playing lan games or going to sisters island for 2d 1n.
No comments.
etched memories, 7:52 AM.
Monday, October 3, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Over-reaction or under-reaction?
To have a reaction is a sign that one is valued,
even if it is an over-reaction.
"Under-reaction" implies there's no more worth in putting time, effort or emotion in something anymore, which is sad.
To have a reaction is a sign that one is valued,
even if it is an over-reaction.
"Under-reaction" implies there's no more worth in putting time, effort or emotion in something anymore, which is sad.
etched memories, 4:23 PM.
A short summary on what happened over the weekend;
Bee's grandpa was admitted into SGH.. he's still in the hospital and i hope and pray that he'll be fine..
He's a very nice and pleasant man. :)
Some trust issues i have with bee.
I wanted to but some things feels so suspicious and it's questionable; the answer i got led me to more questions, logically.
It would have been better if there were some assurance.
I guess i got demoralised then.
Bee's grandpa was admitted into SGH.. he's still in the hospital and i hope and pray that he'll be fine..
He's a very nice and pleasant man. :)
Some trust issues i have with bee.
I wanted to but some things feels so suspicious and it's questionable; the answer i got led me to more questions, logically.
It would have been better if there were some assurance.
I guess i got demoralised then.
etched memories, 9:50 AM.
Thursday, August 18, 2011
Quite abit of stuff happened last week; which led me to ponder and reflect.
Things that upset me, somehow seemed insignificant to my bf.
Why is this so?
Is it just me, being over-sensitive?
Is it that i cared to much, which is why i tend to just speak my mind to try and solve things right there and then?
I don't like to be the irritating one who always bring something up.
But, what choice do i have?
My bf isn't one who's naturally very open and chatty.
If he naturally opens up to me, talks to me, lets me know what's really on his mind or how he's feeling, i won't have to keep on probing, trying to get some answers so that whatever issue is bugging me, will be "solved".
I dont like to sweep things under the rug and let it pile up.
We know that it will burst open one day.
I'm one who prefers to talk it out; give each other a chance to tell their side of the story.
I just can't have a cold war, and when i asked if it was because of me, i was told no.
If it wasn't me, why give me the cold shoulder and leave me all puzzled and thinking all the time for what that i might have done. This, again will get me started on probing.
If i was told directly what the reason was, i wouldnt have probed so much.
But again, maybe i cared too much which is why all these affects me whereas you seemed.. so fine.
Maybe.
I should just be like you.
So cool and not be bothered by all these.
Even if it does, i'll just keep mum.
Things that upset me, somehow seemed insignificant to my bf.
Why is this so?
Is it just me, being over-sensitive?
Is it that i cared to much, which is why i tend to just speak my mind to try and solve things right there and then?
I don't like to be the irritating one who always bring something up.
But, what choice do i have?
My bf isn't one who's naturally very open and chatty.
If he naturally opens up to me, talks to me, lets me know what's really on his mind or how he's feeling, i won't have to keep on probing, trying to get some answers so that whatever issue is bugging me, will be "solved".
I dont like to sweep things under the rug and let it pile up.
We know that it will burst open one day.
I'm one who prefers to talk it out; give each other a chance to tell their side of the story.
I just can't have a cold war, and when i asked if it was because of me, i was told no.
If it wasn't me, why give me the cold shoulder and leave me all puzzled and thinking all the time for what that i might have done. This, again will get me started on probing.
If i was told directly what the reason was, i wouldnt have probed so much.
But again, maybe i cared too much which is why all these affects me whereas you seemed.. so fine.
Maybe.
I should just be like you.
So cool and not be bothered by all these.
Even if it does, i'll just keep mum.
Labels: rantings
etched memories, 12:56 PM.
Thursday, July 14, 2011
Had a catching up session with one of my friends, only to reminisce the past.
It just seemed like yesterday, when we were so carefree with no worries.
We just had to worry about our studies, boy-girl relationships, having fun.. etc
Oh, how i miss those days.
Now everything seemed to have made a 360 degree turn.
Now we worry about school, work, income and so much more!!
Furthermore, living here in Singapore it is really very competitive.
We work to survive, not survive to work.
Here, everything is about money.
Government is increasing the cost of living, life gets more stressful.
Of course, those living a sheltered life, may not experience this yet.
Now i'm starting to ponder.
Even if i manage to complete my studies and get a degree, will my future income be enough?
Or maybe, by the time i graduate, even a degree is rendered useless.
Oh boy.
It just seemed like yesterday, when we were so carefree with no worries.
We just had to worry about our studies, boy-girl relationships, having fun.. etc
Oh, how i miss those days.
Now everything seemed to have made a 360 degree turn.
Now we worry about school, work, income and so much more!!
Furthermore, living here in Singapore it is really very competitive.
We work to survive, not survive to work.
Here, everything is about money.
Government is increasing the cost of living, life gets more stressful.
Of course, those living a sheltered life, may not experience this yet.
Now i'm starting to ponder.
Even if i manage to complete my studies and get a degree, will my future income be enough?
Or maybe, by the time i graduate, even a degree is rendered useless.
Oh boy.
Labels: rantings
etched memories, 10:34 AM.
